Thursday, August 26, 2010

Blank Canvas....


So here I am.... 
I have every intention on posting, but find it hard lately to settle on what to write. I have so much going on in this brain of mine that it is hard to choose just what to talk about.( A very large clue that I haven't been posting enough.) Less than two weeks and the kids are back in school. Mixed emotions. Love them to pieces, yet longing for some art time.... solitude, sanctuary.... meditation what have you. I have been doing so much with the kiddos and helping the art gallery in between... oof. Really, OOoooooof. I kinda want to scream right now. That sounds horrible doesn't it? Well, sorry but I am going to burst soon. I guess that doesn't really sound mixed, pretty sure I am ready for them to go back. Does that make me a bad mom? I used to think so.... back in the day before kids, and I would hear a mom say the same exact thing I just did. I always wanted children, especially knowing how difficult it would be for me to have them.... so I couldn't imagine being worn out or needing time for me... that always sounded so selfish. But of course, I used to have all the time , the energy , the solitude and inspiration in the world. I guess, you don't understand the need for it until you don't have easy access to it. Must fall in line with that old saying... 'you want what you can't have'. Well, I want both... mom and artist.. too much to ask? Hmmm..... anyways... I drift....


The gallery I am a part of, Gallery 4, Ltd., is having a 35year Anniversary celebration. Getting ads, invites, updates and trying to redecorate/update the gallery. It will be lovely.... 
So in honor of this celebration... we all decided to bring in new work. 
Hence, the blank canvas.

I have been walking past my blank canvas for about 2 weeks. I can't focus. I decided I would do a larger canvas for such a special occasion. It sits there like a neon sign flashing..

"Sooo .... you going to paint me or what?!?"
(if neon could sound sarcastic, it would here)

So please send me some inspiration! I need some help here. I am in a funk. Thanks loves. Just wish I could have you all over for a cup of tea!!! xo

Carrie




4 comments:

Felicia said...

Hi! looking forward to your kids going back to school doesn't make you a bad Mum ( if it does then there aren't too many good ones out there!) I too am looking forward to more art/craft/me time!

That canvas will eventually be beautiful, don't worry, whatever its meant to be will just appear in your head some day - ( did I just hear you say "soon would be good"??!)

Enjoy the rest of the school holidays,
Felicia xxxxx

Faerie Moon Creations said...

Close your eyes and dream a little dream. Imagine your favorite imaginary world. Think of flowers and butterflies and faeries. :)
Hope inspiration visits you soon...and thanks for posting! Theresa

Julia, the Thanksgiving Girl said...

Sending you lots of inspiration all the way from Russia!! :) I'm always willing to share :) lol

Joyce van der Lely said...

Carrie, your post sounds so exactly like my life, it's like I am reading my story.....allthough my miracle-kids are at school (summer here is your winter etc) The only thing different is that I am NOT part of a Gallery (yet) and I wish to have my work somewhere other than just on-line. My head is full with ideas and inspiration, but somethimes so full of it that I cannot get any work started. I find just start ANYTHING helps me along the way and then it all spills out onto paper; canvas and what not. Yes I would gladly come and have a cup of tea with you, "beam me up Scotty !" and I'll be there, haha ! Take care and get out of your art-block soon, I always love to see your art ! ♥♥♥ Joyce